Tag: Hope
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Storms and Faith and Fasting

“If I want to live the fullest life God has for me, I have to believe that God wants to reward me for seeking Him. And when I am intentional about gratitude, I see rewards in my life already…”
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Chasing the Holy Spirit.

Places I have routinely been able to feel the Holy Spirit personally touch my heart or speak directly to me: Wait, what? Yeah, I know. Who am I even? But the first time I really felt like I heard God speaking to me was when I found out our youngest was going to be a…
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Walking out Big Prayers (Pt. 2)

3/14/23- Well, today has been a real kick in the teeth. I had a phone interview with a travel nursing recruiter. To prep for that, I decided to gather my certifications and make sure my onboarding paperwork was at least at my disposal. Guess what? I don’t have proof of two of my basic certifications.…
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Intentional Intimacy with Unintended Results
1am- tonight I am lying here awake, running over the list of disappointments I have going in my life, while my husband sleeps on my pillow next to our toddler. Tonight I sit here wondering if all this is worth it.
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Walking out Big Prayers (Pt. 1)

So, with this post (series?) I intend to really push myself to a point of faith and vulnerability that will be undoubtedly uncomfortable for me. I will have to be vague in some things to protect people I love. However, where I can, I intend to be very specific in my prayers, my situation, what…
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Reusable Bags and Disposable People.

Disposable. Everything in my life has been disposable. People, jobs, plates, ziplocks… me. I really only decided my marriage was not disposable within the last 2 years. I spent a decade of my life with someone that I was just waiting or one of us to leave. In fact, I was so sure of the…
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Working on my Temper.

I heard a sermon the other day (read: sometime in the last six months or so) from Elevation Church. The standout message I heard was this: Something could happen right now in your life that would make everything else irrelevant. Ask yourself: If you lost your family, what would you give to get them back?…
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Divided Hearts and Broken Marriages made Whole.

“Teach me your way, Lord, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever. For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths, from…
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Intentional Intimacy. But not the kind with my husband.

First of all, I’m already uncomfortable even looking at this title. I just mean to say I have been conditioned by my personal life experiences to associate the word intimacy with sexual relationships, yet never to consider sex as the ultimate act of intimacy as a human. Turns out, at nearly 40 years old, with…
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Meltdowns, Ministries, and Miracles.

Sunday morning: Here I am again. Breathless, tear-stained cheeks, all the rage having left my body, I feel shaky and full of regret for another failure. I’m alone, having successfully sabotaged my personal life today. I am missing a meeting for a marriage ministry class with my husband and our church service. My husband is…
