Tag: Marriage
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Why does alcohol still call my name?
I have a love/hate relationship with alcohol. I love how it changes the way I feel, but I hate the consequences of my drinking. I no longer drink and drive, and I cannot say exactly why that is, suffice it to say that I do not drink in places where driving home is a possibility…
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Can You Testify from the Darkness?
My life is a testimony of God. Today isn’t as dark as it has been often of late… but there was spiritual warfare yesterday on my behalf. If I am going to be held in bondage to my mental health, I am no longer going to be held in bondage of the fear and shame…
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The Slow Fast
It’s an hour until midnight. Tomorrow will be one month since I said I would study and then try a fast. Guess what? Barring a Holy Spirit moment mid-writing, I am not going to make that happen in my original timeline. I certainly will not be studied on the subject to the extent I had…
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The Doldrums
Here I was sailing merrily along, announcing I was ready for a storm, trying to mentally prepare myself for what I figured was going to a fight brought to my door by the outside world. I even felt like God was telling me to batten down and pull closer to my family in preparation. But…
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Storms and Faith and Fasting
“If I want to live the fullest life God has for me, I have to believe that God wants to reward me for seeking Him. And when I am intentional about gratitude, I see rewards in my life already…”
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Walking Out Big Prayers (Pt. 3)
3/24/23- I had to mentally spiral for a couple days after my last post on this subject. Trying to figure out what God wants me to do in this space, what I want for my own life, and what works for my family led me to spinning my mental wheels, and landed me on my…
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Chasing the Holy Spirit.
Places I have routinely been able to feel the Holy Spirit personally touch my heart or speak directly to me: Wait, what? Yeah, I know. Who am I even? But the first time I really felt like I heard God speaking to me was when I found out our youngest was going to be a…
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Intentional Intimacy with Unintended Results
1am- tonight I am lying here awake, running over the list of disappointments I have going in my life, while my husband sleeps on my pillow next to our toddler. Tonight I sit here wondering if all this is worth it.
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Walking out Big Prayers (Pt. 1)
So, with this post (series?) I intend to really push myself to a point of faith and vulnerability that will be undoubtedly uncomfortable for me. I will have to be vague in some things to protect people I love. However, where I can, I intend to be very specific in my prayers, my situation, what…
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Reusable Bags and Disposable People.
Disposable. Everything in my life has been disposable. People, jobs, plates, ziplocks… me. I really only decided my marriage was not disposable within the last 2 years. I spent a decade of my life with someone that I was just waiting or one of us to leave. In fact, I was so sure of the…
Chelsea Finds Jesus 